Second Thursday in Easter: The Pastor As Spiritual Mentor

Today we begin: nineteen wonderful women clergy and the Pastor as Spiritual Mentor. Teri, my co-facilitator, led a thought-provoking conversation about pastors as mentors. Referring to Eugene Peterson’s Under the Unpredicatable Plant, Teri reminded us that sometimes we are called to walk with folks in our parishes during extraordinarily difficult times of grief, illness, and hardship.  That time our role may be what Peterson calls messiah (not with a capital M).  Sometimes we are helping keep order in the church, and our role is what he calls manager. But our unique role as pastors is what Peterson calls spiritual director.  This facet of clergy life is what we’re exploring in our understanding of our role as spiritual mentors.

Peterson reminds us that it is not the clergy’s job to mange the Kingdom but to be attentive to God, to be attentive to how God is with people, circumstances and situations, and to call attention to God.  In fact, Teri reminded us that we are often called to step back and do nothing. By doing that, we can listen to the silence between the sounds and discern the Spirit, name God, and open our eye to adoration.



Tonight we go to play with the sisters of our Lady of Grace. I understand it will include eating pie. 



Second Wednesday in Easter: Colored with Grace


The Women touched by Grace have finished their story-telling, and Teri, the Presbyterian pastor who is my co-teacher, and I are doing final planning before we begin teaching our first session in the morning of  The Pastor as Spiritual Mentor.  

I had some time this afternoon to have a massage, a thank you from the grant that funds this program, and a walk around the grounds which of course meant a labyrinth walk. 


I don’t know that I’ve been here at the Monastery when there were more flowers. They are everywhere!

The chapel where we worship is filled with flowers.


Lilacs had been placed on the table where I sat during our morning session.
  

And then there are the grounds of the monastery. 


Covered in grace.   Literally.



Abounding in grace.  Color-full of grace. 


Second Week of Easter: Touched by Grace, again


This is the eleventh year that I’ve come to Our Lady of Grace, sometimes as a participant of Women Touched by Grace, sometimes as an oblate, sometimes as a teacher of a Women Touched by Grace group.

Women Touched by Grace is an Eli Lilly Sustaining Pastoral Excellence Grant for women clergy.  I was blessed to be part of the first WTBG group which gathered seven times between 2003 and 2006.  As a result of my relationship with the (Benedictine) sisters of Our Lady of Grace Monastery (with whom we shared worship, prayer, and play), I became an oblate of the monastery which has brought me back to monastery at least once every year. The bonus has been that I have been asked to return to facilitate Women Touched by Grace sessions for the second, and now the third group.

I was scheduled to leave Houston early yesterday morning, but when I got to the airport they were looking for volunteers to fly out on the afternoon flight (the flight to Indy the night before had been cancelled, and there were a slew of people yearning to get home).  It was one of those rare times when I could actually take a later flight–so for waiting, I got a $500 travel voucher, a first class ticket on the 1 PM flight, and a morning in the first class lounge.  

My seat mate on the flight was a young mom who was holding her one year old daughter, just three months older than my grandson Jonas. It made for a bit of adventure, but how nice to be able to be a flight grandma for a couple of hours.


So now I’m at the monastery.   Lilacs are blooming.  I have a lovely small room in the guest quarters.  I’ve walked the labyrinth, prayed the morning office with the sisters, and already had holy rest.


At Morning Praise this morning, the acolyte read from St. Julian of Norwich:

I saw no kind of vengeance in God,
not for a short time
nor for long–

for as I see it,
if God were vengeful 
even for a brief moment
we would never have life, place or being.

In God is endless friendship,
space, life and being.

Second Sunday of the Resurrection: A Gospel for those who wait


At St. Mary’s on Holy Saturday, Sharon takes down the Stations of the Cross which surround our iNave and replaces them with Stations of the Resurrection.  These fourteen pieces of art, created by our own Celeste Booker, represent encounters with the resurrected Jesus. The Gospel for the Second Sunday of Easter (John 20.  19–31) are represented by Stations Five and Six. 

Station five is a response to the night of Jesus’ resurrection, last Sunday evening.  The disciples are gathered in the place where they were last in community with Jesus before he was crucified.

I wonder when they returned to this familiar place, a place full of memories of meals and love and washed feet and conversation: were the dishes still on the table?  Were there crumbs left on the floor?

We dont know who all was there–disciples could have included women and children, too.  We know who wasnt thereJudas, because he had committed suicide after betraying Jesus.
And Thomas.

We arent told why Thomas wasnt in the room with the other disciples. Was he home tending his family? Had he missed the email blasts and the texts letting him how the disciples were getting together?
Was he too sad?  Too afraid?  Too angry?  Only God knows, but because he wasnt there, he missed being with Jesus.

And it wasnt a casual encounter he missed; Jesus gave those gathered disciples words of peace. Jesus gave them his Spirit. What a night to miss church! 


Why-ever Thomas wasnt there, when he heard who and what he had missed, he had to wait a whole week. Think about that.

Where were you last Sunday night?
Think of all that has happened this past week, and imagine, hearing that Jesus was alive, and knowing youd missed him. That you might have missed your only opportunity to see him again.  Ever.
7 days.  168 hours.  10,080 minutes.  604,600 seconds.
Thomas is the disciple who says what others think but are too shy to say. When Jesus and the disciples hear that Lazarus has died, it is Thomas who says, Let us also go, that we may die with him.

Thomas is the one who asks the questions others are too afraid to ask.
When Jesus says that the disciples know where he is going, and that he is going to prepare a place for them, it is Thomas who asks, Lord, we do not know where you are going. How can we know the way?

I like Thomas.  A lot.  I think God does, too.  I think that God likes when we ask questions.  Hard questions.  Seemingly foolish questions. I think that God likes when were looking for God and trying to understand who God is. I think that God likes when we seek a relationship with God.

Thomas does all this.

When Thomas says, unless I see and touch Jesus, Im not going to believe,  remember what believing means is Johns Gospel: Believing means having a relationship with God.

Thomas wants a relationship with Jesus, not some easy statement of faith. Thomas doesnt want a second hand experience of Jesus. Thomas is saying I want to be with Jesus.

Thats what God wants for each of us.
For us to seek and have a relationship with Jesus.  For us to be found by Jesus.

Thomas has to wait 10 days after Jesus’ death, but Thomas does get what he yearns for–a real life encounter with Jesus. Its represented by station number six of our Stations of the Resurrection.

Our Gospel today reminds those of us who ask hard questions that we are in good company.  Those of us who are waiting are in good company, too.
Thomas waits, and he gets to touch Jesus. Thomas waits, and he receives Jesus’ word of peace. Thomas waits, and he will receive the gift of the Holy Spirit, Christs own Spirit, even if missed receiving it the evening of the resurrection, he will receive it six weeks later on the Feast of Pentecost.
One of the things that gives me pause when I stand and ponder our Stations of the Resurrection and look at the gold cross front and center of each Station is what I see reflected in the cross. Myself. Literally. We are all invited in our waiting and longing and fear and questions and uncertainty and hopefulness to find our heart’s desire, Jesus.  It is always a yes.